being a naughty fig??????????

We went to a Nicky Cruze dinner last night which was wonderful. He still has so much passion and vision for souls saved and souls kept. We had the blessed opportunity to sit with him, and talk with him. He shared about his hatred (lightly esteeming) David Wilkerson. His temptations to murder him, and when David said to him, even if you cut me into pieces you can't kill love. Wow, that really stuck with me. I thought of a pastor who was sitting behind us who has cut not only my husband into little pieces but has served him up on a little platter to others. I wondered who he might have in his life to talk with him about his slander, gossip, his hands that shed innocent blood. "They eat up my children as one eats bread and call not upon the Lord" the psalm says. He has "served" my husband to others too, and who is there to convict him, to lead him to repentance.

I wonder if he even knows how many people now know him as a gossip, slanderer, backbiter, one who can't control his evil imaginations. (It's unbelievable what he spreads in gossip about us). When people hear what he is saying about another man of God in town who lives to help God's children repent, turn, from their sins, they think what went wrong in this mans life that he doesn't understand "slaying the ones who are sent to you", but what he says? Doesn't he realize Jesus will have an opinion about the gossip, slander, backbiting, and the nature of these problems? Has anyone ever taught him the story of Cain and Able? He's going to be so sad one day for crucifying one of God's elect with the spirit of his mouth.

Jer.23 talks about the TRUE SHEPHERDS that bring you face to face with your sin. (so you will be cleaned up for the marriage supper of the Lamb.) Ex. 21 talks about that too, Job 6 says, "the things my soul refused to touch became my sorrowful meat." I think it's human nature to do just about ANYTHING we can to wash our hands, and avoid looking at the inside of the cup.

Facing our fears and insecurities is a road many don't travel. Ps.112 says God will deliver us from our fears and destructions, but how many people will really face up to their fears and destructions TO GET DELIVERED. Maybe that's why Jesus said, wide is the gate that leads to destruction and many are on it. Most people spend their life running from their fears and destructions, not facing them. I have to wonder if the pastor of this large church can spread such vicious lies and gossip because he's running from something inside himself. Who will tell him JESUS LOVES HIM, and he needs to "repent" for being a Cain who is killing his brother Able with the spirit of his mouth? I wonder if he will have time to repent before he faces Jesus, and finds out the truth, and has to face the shame of murdering one God loved with the spirit of his mouth!

Oh how many people are willing to scrub, scrub, scrub, the outside of cup with strife and religious works, but deep in their soul, they are filled with dead mens bones, and their mouth is an open grave. Their empty chatter is just a reflection of their empty heart. If you talk to them long enough, you can hear the dead bones, those thoughts lodged in their heart that aren't right towards the Lord. Life and death is in the power of our tongue. Jesus said "every idle word a man speaks will be held against him in the day of judgment." What he means is that our words operate, they are either the source of life or death, and it all depends on the motives of the heart of the one speaking the words. He told the wicked and slothful servant......"out of your mouth, you have condemned yourself." The proverbs say that the words of a mans heart are "deep" waters. And some people have a cesspool of demonic thoughts that reside deep in their soul that they don't talk to the Lord about. But these lies lodged in our soul we haven't taken captive to the obedience of Christ will seep out eventually. When the enemy comes in like a flood, THE LORD LIFTS UP A STANDARD. When the devil is speaking to us through someone's mouth we love, we shouldn't be indifferent, but look pray to hear the right voice! And give them "good food," for the bad food they gave us. That's really what Jesus did for Peter.

Some people say spiritual things, even quote scriptures and talk about the things of God, but THE MOTIVE OF their HEART IS SELF SERVING. They speak because they love the praise of men. This is a heart filled with SELF INTEREST! These words are not motivated by any BENEVOLENT LOVE. These are people so selfish, they care little about the arsenic, boric acid, self serving, self seeking words that come out of their mouths because they have no peace with God. Some love the praise of men, they seek the approval of men, they fear man much more than God, and they really couldn't care less about the death they let float out of their mouths regularly and how it's affecting others. They don't even judge most of the time if the words they speak are really for the benefit, the well being, the edifying, the building up of others. They only care about getting their needs met, and they don't care if the meditation of their heart is right. (Just like Peter wasn't caring when he spoke to Jesus.) They care about getting the approval they need from others, they only look for acceptance from man, they don't care to if THE WORDS OF THEIR MOUTH AND THE MEDITATION OF THEIR HEARTS ARE ACCEPTABLE IN GODS SIGHT. They wouldn't consider any obligation to be honest, sincere, and help others judge the spirit of their words, BECAUSE THEY DON'T WANT ANYONE TO JUDGE THEIR SELF SEEKING WORDS.

I was also thinking about "suffering that woman Jezebel." Suffering meaning.......being indifferent to someone who is controlled by Satan in their thoughts, and words. Controlled because they love their life and they won't loose it for the greater cause. Controlled because of being weak minded because they love their life and their thoughts and don't take the time to make Gods thoughts their thoughts. They don't really care if their thoughts are coming from hell, their words are coming from hell, because they love themselves and only care about getting what they need from others, not in what they serve to others. Being a servant isn't part of their thoughts most of the time. Laboring in God's Kingdom, and loving the saving and keeping of souls, is not what makes these people tic. They serve God for their own pleasure and happiness. They haven't taken on Jesus' burden, which is easy and light......the loving and keeping of souls. They live under the lie THAT really doing GOD'S WILL IS TOO BIG OF A BURDEN. They feel sorry for themselves, and the thought of their heart is the way of the Lord is too hard. Most of their thoughts are MAKING EXCUSES for their flesh, and accusing others. So they throw their talent away. Getting their own needs met is the meditation of their heart. They don't have the love or faith, to speak the truth in love for we are members of one another. They don't care about really helping others grow up........only in getting their own needs met. They don't even consider that one day it will all be exposed and they will be REWARDED for how they have really been involved in the saving and keeping of souls. (You know the souls they think they will live with through eternity?) What came to me the other day is that most women get married to have their flesh gratified, and to be taken care of. And how many people come to Jesus for the same reason. I haven't met too many women that came to Jesus to be involved in His pleasure, who have passion for thinking His thoughts and speaking His words, and helping other to do the same! But isn't this truly what a Proverbs 31 woman would do?

HOW MUCH DO WE CAUSE OTHER'S TO PASS THROUGH THE FIRES OF THE SPIRIT'S WE DON'T JUDGE IN OURSELVES?

The end of self indulgence, and sin IS DEATH. Self serving people filled with lust and addiction don't care about how they are affecting, loving others. One thing I have observed about many women is how they love their husbands gifts. They love the pleasures of the relationship, and what their husbands can give to them and provide for them, but they don't love their husbands souls. They don't think about being honest, sincere, praying, spending time in the word. They are content to have accusations, divisions, evil imaginations, and little foxes live in their relationships with their husbands. They don't even see how their failure to judge how they really love the men in their lives, is how they love Jesus, God, too! OH THEY LOVE THE GIFTS.......just not the Giver. If they loved the giver, they would love the givers children. But they don't, they lie, and are insincere, and insecure with the Givers children. They are too wrapped up in getting what they need from the givers children to love them. Honesty and sincerity are a threat to them, because then they would really have to examine their faith to get their needs met. They would rather be controlling. Love is a threat, and withholding their heart and thoughts is their power and control. They suffer the spirit of control in themselves, so they suffer it in others too! They are blind to the fact that they have blood on their hands. They don't care if someone around them is starting a Forrest fire with their mouth, because they are too busy getting their own needs met. They wouldn't think too long about putting the Forrest fires around them out, and they don't consider the fact that God will judge them as much as the one who is using their mouth to start the fire!

IF WE FAIL TO SPEAK THE TRUTH IN LOVE, WE DEPRIVE THOSE AROUND US FROM BEING ABLE TO GROW UP! We are guilty of burring our talent, and perhaps denying the Holy Ghost. How will we become the bride of Christ, perfect, complete, without division, if we love our precious life so much, we don't care if someone around us is being robbed and by our indifference......WE CONSENT WITH THE THIEF! Having eyes to see, they see not, having ears to hear, they hear not, lest the glorious light of the gospel should come and heal them. Some people just don't want the glorious light of the gospel to heal them, they want to be sick and TAKEN CARE OF. They are comfortable with their "unholy" spirits.

The truth is, we all HAVE NO EXCUSE FOR THE GLORIOUS LIGHT OF THE GOSPEL NOT COMING AND HEALING us. The only reason for our lack of healing is because deep in our hearts we LOVE THE PRAISE OF MEN, MORE THAN GOD. We are content to live life without Jesus. Are your words self seeking? Do you listen to the self seeking words of others who love the praise of men? How much do you suffer the spirit of Jezebel, control, in your life. Some men's sins go before them, others follow after them. You'll never have peace if you lie to yourself about the content of your own words, and the content of the words of those around you. WAKE UP FROM YOUR SLEEP, ARISE FROM YOUR DEATH, AND God will give you light!